Life Lately Vol. 4 A New Year Post

“Have I not commanded you? Be strong and be courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.” –Joshua 1:9

It’s been more than 3 months since I last posted here and I know, I suck, just as much as the start of my 2020 was. I honestly still can’t process that we are just on the second month of this year and so much has happened and most of us are probably on high alert right now because of the Novel Coronavirus. But that’s a post for another day. For now, let me just greet everyone a late happy new year!

Before I started writing this I looked back to my Birthday Post. I felt like I needed that kind of perspective again, that kind of wisdom. Lately it’s as if I’m falling off the right track which I am trying to take. It was hard to keep myself together when it felt like things were falling apart. Nonetheless I kept my head high and kept moving forward, always failing but continuously trying, and I think I’m doing a good job holding on.

Coming to Japan is one of my dreams come true. Even though I couldn’t say that working and living here has always been rainbows and sparkles, it’s the best thing that ever happened to me (of course aside from having a really supportive family). I only used to imagine coming here, but now I actually live here.

It was my first time to celebrate the New Year’s without my family with me. It wasn’t as lively and loud as I’m used to, but instead it was warm and cozy. I spent it with someone special and it made me feel I wasn’t alone. It was nice to have someone but the fear of being alone isn’t enough to keep a relationship. So as difficult as it may be (and as stupid as it may sound), I decided to let him go. As cliche as this may be, some people are just not meant to stay in your life (or maybe stay as the role that you want them to be) –at least for now.

Side note: And for anyone who is wondering (of course you are), yes we are okay and we still talk almost every day like we used to. Let’s keep it that way for now.

Soon enough after a few days of mourning for my loss (LOL JK) reality slapped me in the face—I needed to find a new job. Right at that moment I was flooded with anxiety. Wave by wave it hit me. All I could think of is that I might lose my dream and everything I worked hard for to get here. I had the option to stay where I am but that would mean I’d sacrifice something way more important for me (something to do with my spiritual well-being). So I needed to find a job elsewhere.

I felt lost, disoriented and very anxious. I didn’t know where to start and it felt as if I was going nowhere with the job hunting. And then Danica reminded me I have a friend to back me up. One day as we were both feeling down she handed me this Bible Verse:

…soon after a door opened.

Because of some very favorable developments, I’m staying with my current company which ended the long weeks of stress and uncertainty. As for the moment, I’m taking in as much of this as I can because I’m pretty sure 2020 is not done yet messing up my life. LMAO just kidding, but I know there’d be more challenges to come.

So right now let’s focus on making ourselves better and slowly make progress. Never be too hard on yourself and believe in the good of the world. Always remember to TPWK.

“Acknowledging the good that you already have in your life is the foundation for all abundance” –Eckhart Tolle